chemo sucko

Had the consult yesterday with my new sarcoma doctor..the other one in on vacation for 8 weeks, must be rough. It boils down to this, they don't know if anything actually works or not because , as I've heard 3,000 times already, no one else gets this kind of cancer, so there's no actual studies, therefore all the evidence they have is anecdotal. He basically told me that I could do nothing and wait and watch, but up to 70% of people will have it come back and when it does, it's just a matter of time, there's no curing it. He said that they have good outcomes there with people who do chemo, but again, he wouldn't tell me what that means. I think they don't want to be haunted by me if I go fast, get pissed afterwards and have nothing better to do in the afterlife. The therapy that he's recommending is a 6 month regiment of Gemcitabine, Abraxane and Bevecizumab, every 2 weeks by IV for 3 hours each. El sucko. Side effects suck too, nausea, vomiting, hair loss, diarrhea, peripheral nerve damage, blood clots, you name it. The thought of doing nothing is not an option, I couldn't live with myself if I cheated my babies for even one month because I didn't want the side effects. There's no guarantees that this will do anything, but at least I will know that I've done everything possible to stick around as long as I can for them, and for chocolate covered strawberries:). I'm back on my feet again..in lab doing nothing...just like any other normal grad student.