Thank you Ted

Having cancer is not always silly and fun. Sometimes there are dark moments totally devoid of light, as if a black hole suddenly appeared on an otherwise non-collapsed sun filled day. You can almost see those rays of light being stolen from you and the faster you chase after them, the closer into the abyss you're pulled. I was on my way in, pretty deep last night when Ted reached his hand in and pulled me out. I don't know what surface he was standing on, but it was strong enough to hold us both up. He reminded me that I can do things right now to help my babies, and for me, that's the only thing that matters. I'm on my way back to the silliness. Later today, I'm putting together a photo montage that will be entitled "fun with cancer". There'll be everything from silly wigs, to fake boob contests to sexy bathing suit displays....